the drugging of a life time

Lose of a friend?

I have a feeling it's coming up. I've become mr.brutal-honesty and it's bothering them.

My best friend has something against me, maybe its the fact that I am not going to the same school, maybe it's because I have other friends too, maybe it's because I found myself and they still havent, maybe it's all of the above. All I know is that our friendship is on the rocks and it's totally my fault. I'm going to have to stop being social because it's ruining the good friendships I've had. I'll need to stop thinking, take sleeping pills every day and every night to stop those thoughts from coming. Because if those thoughts come, there comes my opinions. And those have gotten me thrown out on my ass. I should move to Texas, go on tour with Bowling For Soup. They make me happy. And stink. Stink is nice.
If not that, Fall Out Boy maybe. Joe 'the jew' Trohman can make me happy. Very happy. Maybe I'll just move to a small town with Chelsie and buy a bull dog, name it Panik and have a wonderful life, away from rumors, lies, and immaturity. My life really sucks right now, actually not my life, the lives around me. They're all dragging me down, and can they help that I care too much? No, it's not their faults. It's my fault again, for getting attached and they hurting them. All the kids who still hang around me should stop. Honestly, I'll make you depressed, emotional insane, angry, and I'll most likely give you an STD or a big dose of Teenage Angst. Think about it; after meeting me Frankie started cutting, and has been to the mental hospital twice. Andi has become an emotional rollercoaster and needs the two people I introduced him to, to survive. Do either of those people need me? Not at all. I could run away and they'd both go on living. Infact, they may be better. as long as Frankie has her computer, as long as Andi has Pete and Pierre, they're both fine.  That just goes to show you:

i

am

useless

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08:29, Sunday, January 21, 2007 .. Posted by Anonymous

You're not useless.

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