mmmmmm good evening all you sluts and whores tramps and trollops misfits and freaks alike all you wannabe goths you real goths you emos you punks and you normies that accidentally entered this blog, you poor poor bastards. i am in a rather odd mood at the moment so please do excuse this. so some bitches and jerks were talking behind my back today, sad thing is i could hear the. anyone care to take the knife from my back? i was grounded since tuesday and got the computer back so childrem mumma is back my baybays dont worry mumma is back mumma is back. so children sit around me in an orderly fashion and let me entertain and delight you with my stories of my life sofar. sit around yonder campfire as i illustrate my life in word form each word flowing from my crimson lips. so we wills tart with brooks this is a rough copy of an msn converstion me and him had it goes slightly as follows:

brooks: so this summer i got a bj from a girl

me: you dog you lol

brooks:she got more out of it than me though

me:ummm isnt it the other way around?

brooks: eyah after a while i had to tell her to sjut stop

me:wow thats a tad cunty

brooks:yeah it was

brooks: i also went down on the girl this summer

me:dayumn when do yuo stop you lurrrv machine?

brooks: she got mroe put of it than me though still

me:ummm that is kinda how it works, you know since it is you doign it to her she is gonan be the one who will cum you know jsut for future reference

brooks: yeah, it tasted weird.

yes my baybays mr.please-sit-on-my-face-and-let-me-stick-my-tongue-in-you-so-i-can-drink-you, -i-bet-you-taste-like-honey said it tasted weird. the dunce. no brooks its more likely to taste of cottoncandy. *rolls eyes*

so onto the next order of business, i'm read the book haunted it is bloody fanfuckingtastic lol.

i got soem mroe pins and such i got soem bettie page and such a sexy vampire debbie harry in a catsuit and the addkts and soem other misselanious ones. i also got a rancid patch, Dead Kennedys patch, and Garbage.

i saw the movie romper stomper (i'm not a skinhead) but yeah the movie was great.

in school i am known as lipstick girl, i then roll my eyes glare and reply with "ha bloody ha how much wit did it take you to come up with that gem you little dunce you, so hwne is the fitting for your dunce cap; you don't want them too tight your already brain damaged enough."

i have currently run out of topics to talk about my kiddies, i have decided to take a restraining order agaisnt my cat, 'm still depressed but can hide it, and yeah i will try to think of some more so yeah have a dreadful night above mentioned freaks. happy hauntings. and jsut for fun although its early, happy early bird birthday baby jebus (not meaning to offend jsut wanna say it)

let me be your faveorite nightmare, with love, me. kisskisskiss xxx

i'm sorry i keep posting so much but i have nothing to do and no-one to talk to besides you poor souls.so with the guy iw as so excited after he said yes and he said but in an hour i ahve to do a paper route but after i'm free so i was like ok and i told him that i was really excited and such and then he stopped talking (this is all on msn) and so he went s of the paper route and now he hasnt been online or anything and its fie thirty i asked him out around 12-ish i am such an idiot for thinking someone could actually like a worthless person like me.i cant believe it i really cant.

this sucks

hello everyone. it has been so long since i have last posted, fear not i am back. so anyways, so much has happened i am in love with a boy and have several crushes on some other guys lol. i am back with beingn friends with the girl that screwed me over and ditched me but her mom has brain cancer and i forgive her for everything.ummm i forget most of what happened lol. my uncle is gonna take me to a concert of the cure i am excited lol.and ya. i'm nto looking forward to the new school basically all the lame bitchy girls that claim to be emo, goth, or punk are all posers and hate my guts and they are stupid and complete whores i have a feeling this is how they talk:

sierra: i'm so goth i only listen to dark goth music and when i listen to goth music i cut myself and when i cut myself i bleed my own blood.i'm so hardcore no-one understands the tormented soul inside of me.

wats-her-face: ohh well i'm so goth i shit actual bats AND i listen to goth music

sierra: i'm so goth i only wear black and the deepest shades of red

wats-her-face: ya well i'm so goth i plan to kill myself one day

sierra: i'm so goth i tried to kill myself

wats-her-face: well i'm so goth i cry black tears black as my soul and outlook on the world its all black

this is just my idea on how the two idiots interact with eachother i'm not entirely sure when i witness it for myself i'll report back to you

ki so now onto the boy that i like: he is so hot he likes me too so its all good. today i'm gonna ask him out to the movies or something cos i have fifty dollers (thank you uncle kurt)

k so actually not much has happened to me.but antyways i should get going ttyl

kissez for my bitchez

see you next time

I'm really happy I got my hair cut. My mom also dyed it black for me last night (my roots were down to my ears) I got it with lots of choppy layers that are really shatered looking and then the hair dresser made my hair a bit shorter in front and put it in a side cu so I mhave half my face covered.I look really good.I've gotten so many compliments already and it's only been like 2 hours.My stepdad was really nice and was being so sweet. My mom also thinks it looks good. But the bad part is I donm't kmnow what to do when I get complimented and I feel so undeserving and outof place so I just end up making an ass out of myself.Like I dont know what to say like do I compliment them back or do i just smile and blusyh and say thank you or do I do both like is it like a bartering system like "ohh i'll compliment your hair if you compliment my bone structure and dress." So anyways, I went to go get my mom a coffee from the tim hortens and my hnds were full I had the really hot coffee,my keys,the strw,and all the change.I had no free hand soi was walking and I heard a whistle like the kind guys do when they see a hot girl but i didnt think it was for me there was probably a really pretty girl behind me or on the other sidewalk to i walked like 2 steps and didtn even look around when i heard another whistle so this time i looked and there was no other epople on the sidewalks so i turned around an there is this  orange coloured truch that is maybe like 20 or so steps away and the guy is in the passenger seat looking out the window staring at me so i look at him and he says something but i dont know what he said because he was like 6 meters away(more or less) so i turned around and went into my apartment (i was like right beside the apartment front door) i was so creeped out but yet kinda flattered but yet angry  if i hadn a free hand i so would have had my middle finger up.it reminds me of one time it was like fall at like 7 oclock and it was dark outside and i went to get some milk and stuff at the gas station and i was walking back up to my apartment when this dark van was driving slowly and the men inside were all staring at me i like speed walked as fst as i could ugh that was so creepy.why do men have to act like that and be so pervy (not all men are like that but quite a large number of them are).

i'm soo glad that little ho-bitch is in jail and by ho-bitch i mean paris hilton.haha it serves her right.i was looking on the internet and i saw the best picture ever of her being whisked away to prison(aagain)and she was int he back of the police car doing the ugly cry.yes this picture has probably been veiwed many a time but i though i would sare it with you my children and together we may bask in its beauty.

So my children today we found out that there is indeed a Santa Claus out there.

Hey everyone,

I have officially realized that I am a complete basket case that hardly has any friends in the world.I have come to this conclusion because I will be with my group but they completky ignore me.So then I slink away to the back and to the side of the group and then I realize that they arent even noticing that I am not in that same spot I just go to the big stairs get out my pen and paper and write sad,depressing,angry,emo/goth poetry or I read some manga or anime or fight club.

I know I am a basket case becuase while all the other kids in my grade are going on this huge week long year end feild trip I will be staying home.So since I love dolls so much I decided to take and old bratz doll and make it look like me.So that my friends and classmats can take it along an get photos of "me" and I can be with them in doll form.This doll looks just like me its wiked awesome.I dont feel like writing all the details down right now but I will sooner or later and maybe post some pics.

talk to you later bitches, word

ello all,i have decided to start a blog and i hve no clue what to name it so if you have any ideas i would greatly appreciate them thank you

hello i just got back from the library.i got out soo many books.i was walking and then i stopped and got some chocolate bubble tea($4.00 .yummy!!!then i walked to the library and then i walked a quarter way home coz i spent all my money i had a doller left and i needed a doller fifty so anyways i was walking and i saw another doller on the ground so i was able to take the bus yay.so i only spent fiv fifty and i get paid on  monday yay i think on monday i will get more bubble tea coz i'm like addicted lol wow this was pointless and boring sorry

allright ttyl bitches

I have decided to unleach my inner dork.I am now on a manga/anime/graphic novel rampage lol.

I am also addicted to bubble tea it is so yummy.

ughgg there is nothing to do today goddam.

well this was pointless ttyl bi

hey everybody

my day was pretty good.

at recess the kid i'm tutoring STILL hasnt given me my mney for this week(he was going o pay my on thursday,then on wednsday,then on thursday,then he was supposed to pay me today and he is moving it AGAIn to now monday.)him and his mom need to seet aht I"M NOT A CHARITY GODDAM IT do i have a sign on my back coz if i do please tell me.

then lumch was better me and my gallpals sammy and billy went to the sairs an it is like surrounded by trees and stuff its nice so anyways the guys were the and htis one guy (we will call him territorial) just got up turned away from us towards a bush but still close to us so we could see him and guess wat he did..........he started pissing on the bush thats right he started pissing in front of 3 girls and 4 guys and i was already facing away from him so when everybody was like"ohh my god wat are you doing ewwww" i turned around to see wat was going on nd there he was i then screamed "wat the hell,ohh my god"

that was really fun me and the other people couldnt stop laughing that was more of my friend than i needed to see lol.

well i think thats about it if i have any other news i shall report ttyl

see ya later bitches make cupcakes or love not war

hey ok does anyone else think that those damn pop-up commercials are annoying and so fucking idiotic?uh my day was so fucking shitty i still cant believe it.fucking goddam it fuckfuckfuck.

1)at recess my friends kinda ditched me not really i kinda ditched thm because they were annoying me so it was half and half.anyways i was sitting on one of the huge stones and reading bridget jones's diary,listening to the pixies,and chuckling because of the dry british humor and wit.so anyways i was reading nd minding my own business and all of  sudden i find the "cool" group of boys from the mrs.m's and mrs.w's class and i'm in mrs.m's class they someimes do this when i'm writting poetry and they do a make-shift therapy session its kinda funny and they are nice and they just kinda joke aroung its kool.anyways i HATE/LOATHE this kid lets call him pathetic dick-wit douchbag(p.d.w.d.b. for short) anyways pdwdb is sadly in the cool group of boys and is actually the only buttugly kid in that group. yesturday me and the cool guy group got into a fiht and they called me a few things and swore at me nd i stormed of LIVID then pdwdb and another kid came up to me and apologized i kinda accepted the other kids apology but not pdwdb's.(he is always being a total prick to me and my friends and i'm sick of it so..so shall it be i hope he enjoys having the angry/feminist/goth/punk/emo girl extremely angry at him. so anyways bach to today the group was around me and they were talking to me and then pdwdb came up and they know it hate him the they were like go away and then i dont know how but the were like "he said that you suck your fathers cock" that made me LIVID i started to get up to go beat the shit out of pdwdbs head and they were like"dont go do go away"(i usually walk away from them due to pdwdb being a prick to me during the "therapy" anyways so i was like i'm not leavving i'm just gonna go scream at him so i went over to time and he saw how angry i was (i was shaking and had an evil smile on my face and laughing hysterically) so then i went over to him and was like "wat the fuck is your problem why the fuck did you say anything about my father i'm fine with you saying things about me i'm used to it but dont you EVER say ANYTHING about my goddam father.you have never met my father i'm so sick of hearing you say anything you want and just thinking its ok.i'm so fucking angry right now you have no idea you have no right saying anything about my father you dont even know him.then by that piont he was running away from me and was like "i didnt say anything about your father and you jus said you dont care if i say stuff about you." so i yelled at him more then an aid came other and was like do you need help and him to listen or are you ok and i was like no i'm fine i'm happy just yelling at him.so ya god he better watch his little bitchface ass.fuck i'm pissed.

2)i forgot my l.a. homework so i'm staying half hour after school FUCK

3)i was tutering a kid an he was being so fucking irratating omg uhhg if it wasnt for the money uhg i dont even know wat i would do

4)i hate myself

and ya there is ome more but i dont feel like writting it anymore i'll write another entry its all about what he kid that i was tutoring said(creepy

allright talk to you later hugs kisses all that pointless shit

see you next time

uhg i feel like crap.i'm just sore i dont even know what hurts right now it all just hurts.i'm listening to dk and singing along i love singing i wanna learn to play guitar but first i gotta save up and get one crap.uhg i hate living i feel like crap all the time  i dont even know how to feel anymore any time i am happy like 10 minutes later i feel like killing myself again ugh kill me.

i had a dream that my father died and all through the service i was planning to kill myself i woke up crying.

hugs kisses and all that shit

fuck the world

ok dearest blog so much has happened.well on wednsday my wiked unkle took me to see bjork.it was really nice of him.it was really fun.

so i tutor every tuesday and thursday and then the kid pays me $10.00 on thursday.i relly needed the money so i could call my best friend who is in winnipeg.so anyways i know it isnt a huge deal ,but i was really looking forward to that money so i could talk to my friend and then he forgot the money.no more like his mother didnt give him the money yes i know that it doesnt matter and that my pay is seeing people i help but still that was just really bunk but then on friday he paid me so it was ok but it just really ruined my mood.

umm i believe that is about it.k well ttyl bitches

ugh i feel like shit i'm bloated andi have the worst cramps ever.

someone i guess that is important in my life just technically left me.lets call her "keyboard" so anyways feyboard woke up one morning cause her friends called her and got her to go to her house so i havent seen feyboard for 3 fucking days in the 3 fucking days i've seen her i have seen her for 10 minutes.its really bunk but whatever i think i'm more pissed off at the fact i really need her right now but uhg i am som pissed i dont know what i would say to her face.

why is my life destined to suck so fucking badly.

and why cant i just curl up and die trust me the world would thrive with one less emo/goth/suicidal/punk/outcast/freak seriously what the fuck can i do to do anything good for anybody or the world my life is pointless no-one loves me but who should i'm an unlovable freak that has no fucking life ahead of her i think my existance is just to die.my life right now is a living hell.i have no fucking way out.i hate me.i remember when i was like 3 i was so happy not knowing what things were instore for me.i loved waking up and seeing the world everyday i had big wide eyes and a huge imagination everything in the world was possible.all i knew that was sad or depressing to me was the fact that daddy and mommy arent together anymore and now i have  new second mommy.i used to see in rainbows everything was happy ang good i loved everyone.i loved me.i would look at someone and i would have eternal love for that stranger i was happy and full of potential and just complet wonder to how things were and just i was still happy.can you believe that i even did ballet now i'm just the girl in the back row off to the side that has the glare in her face,the hurt crushed eyes that are screaming out for sombody any body,all the red and black make-up on her face,all red and black clothing and boots that are falling apart with each step,and many other things just watching the little people doing ballet at my school wishing i was pretty wishing i was  skinny wishing i was loved wishing that i didnt want to die with every waking hour wishing that just wishing i was like those beautiful like those people doing ballet.i used to see a rainbow when i was a kid now i just see black red and shades of gray i hate me.

i hate me.

hugs kisses and all the shit that you dont care about

i'm watching the breakfast club

i feel like shit my i have the worst cramps ever i feel like there is a rabid wolverine trying to claw its way out from my stomach i have the worst nausea ever uhg kill me now

i just realized that i am like a mix of all the characters except for the jock the prom queen and the principal

wow ok i have no clue where to start but umm i am so fucking stressed and so fucking pissed off

1)i owe like 20.00 dollars to the library.fuck.

2)i have no fucking dircetion in my goddam pointless life.i hate me.

3)and ohh ya i almost forgot this morning when i got up and stumbled down to my living room and got on my peice-of-shit computer i looked and the comments left by everyone then looked at one that another person basically said i  am a goth to but i dont have to prove it to people its a personality thing ok or something like that this is all my opinion dont get me wrong but basically from what i think you were trying to say is either a)i'm trying to hard b)real goths dont say they are gothc)i'm not really goth or d)all of the above ore)none of the above

remember this is my opinion so just leave another comment and tell me wheat you meant because i care about what everyone thinks about me and i deffinitly give a damn and you know what just from that comment i will go back to my whole blog and change it all just so that you are completly satisfied cause that is my life goal:to make everyone else happy and to completly change myself for everybody just so that i'm loved......oh wait i'm sorry i just realized that some people dont really realize when i'm being sarcastic in my blog so just so you know that was sarcasm and i really dont give a shit about if you are goth too or if being "goth" is just a state of mind i can do or say whatever the fuck that i want so i'm happy that you were able to show what you thought about my opinions and hint that i may be trying to hard or be a poser but really whatever say whatever the fuck you want i dont really care but i just wanted to say something about that comment so whatever comment if you want and watever

ohh ya and i also forgot about the part in the infamous comment where you told me not to get too down in  the dumps umm wow thats funny coming from someone who doesnt even know me or know who the fuck i am and what things are currntly happining in my life just look back in my other entries and look at the other comment left by the person that told me to be happy and look at what i wrote about that and that is basically what i have to say about that.

allright ttyl by bitches huge kisses and all that piontless shit

p.s. thank you to the person who left the comment with the link to the video or something i really appreciated it thank you very much

bi

i'm so fucking angry and so fucking depressed for no goddam reason i hate my life i just want to die i hate myself so much i'll never be good enough for anyone including myself life is so fucking pointless we are all just like fucking hampsters in a maze and when we finnaly get out of the maze we will just get to go in our tiny cage.

fuck

the

world

ttyl bitches hugs and kisses and all that pointless meaningless shit