I know...

I know I know.... i barely post anymore.   Its not so that i dont think about it, or dont want to, but more so that when i come online, I dont have enough time to do everything i would like to do.  Right now, to write this, i have to shut msn off, am not checking my email. I just came to write.  What to write? not sure....   Now my french blog, i know my mom and sister and other french friends and relative reads. This one?  i have no clue.  I am not going to ask you to comment or let me know you are here; that is no biggies at all, I dont care really; i write for me (sometimes im selfish like that)  but the fact that i have no clue, makes me think that i am pretty much writing in cyber space where no one sees, but hey that's perfectly cool too; this way i can say whatever I want. hahaha

Jay is gone for the week.  Its always hard when he leaves.  This feeling of emptiness.   Even tho he works a lot, and/or is always on a computer, his presence is always comforting.  I am not one of those high maintenance wife that needs my husband to hold my hand or hug me every minutues of the day, or call me 50 times a day.   His presence and his warmth i can feel without a word, without a forced mark of affection.  I am perfectly content by just knowing he is near, by just seeing him over there with his laptop, by just sitting next to him as we watch tv, or by just both of us spending time talking with friends on Msn, hearing each other laugh, sharing what we are talking about like little kids.   Its fun times!     The heat and steam can come later on. hehehe

Anyway, yea, knowing he is away and far makes me uncomfortable.... empty and incomplete.  its not the same.  I miss him!   He will be back friday night.  

The boys have a little friend staying over for a sleep over tonight. They are excited.  I sure could of needed a night of peaceful, quiet, early bed time instead haha but i chose to make them all happy; therefore, i'll be happy too. Hopefully by midnight they will be asleep so i can have an hour or two of that quietness i crave right now! 

I just made them some snow cones; they all wanted 2 flavors; cotton candy at the bottom, and lime on top; quite original no?   haha They are watching the movie called "spaceballs".  Perfect for boys.  Its a comedy remake of star war.  Its quite hillarious actually.  i dont particularly like the use of the words "idiots, balls (as of testicules) stupid and asshole (yup)  but its a good occasion to tell them NOT to use those words.   Its hard for them to understand when they hear them in a funny context and not a mean one. But again its a good way to show them that those words are not acceptable no matter what context.   I dont like little kids saying "stupid". that's just me.   Probably because my son is called "stupid" more than enough at school for his delays.... and i cannot stand the word. Now "balls" that is a totally different story when there is 5 males in the house. 

I have been training good. More than i ever have.  I take a body sculpting  class. That is what its called anyway.  Its painful, works up all the muscles in the body. I should be going 3 times a week to the class, but only make it 1 or 2. However, it showed me that that is what my body has needed for a long time.  I never did strenght training. I did Cardio, and lots of it.   Now, i do mostly strenght (muscles) and i am amazed of the changes i've seen in my body.   My stomach is so firm, my arms, everything. its nice !!  i work out every day at the YMCA but i dont do the class everyday because its in the morning and morning dont work well with  my schedule.  i strongly encourage you all do give it a try.

I will let you go!  and remember.....

SMILE

08:43 - Monday, March 24, 2008 - post comment