live for the sake of life

12:48 - Friday, March 7, 2008 - comments {0} - post comment

hie there

aloha~~

ive been changin my blog to xanga d oh..so er...do review there la ya...peace!!!

its www.xanga.com/michelleakalorei

11:58 - Saturday, September 15, 2007 - comments {0} - post comment

throat infection tht could harm

ahola..its me here..hmmm...how do i start...er...i have this throat pain yesterday and as hour pass by the pain gradually increases..the throat is killing im telling ya..even when u swallow u can feel the pain of the whole body..its a terrible experience..so i get to go to the doctor yesterday and i miss the tuition class cuz there are too many patients and i have to wait till my turn came...the doc said tht my throat infection is really bad..it goes after my voice box tht cause me cannot speak..serious..i cant even say a word..in school im just showing my hand or whisper or write in a note..wow..this is really hard..im not a person who cannot talk ok..just tht i lose my voice cuz of the bad pollution!!!blame the humans.......hahaha...and before tht..tht morning i have fever and really high fever..whoa...scary....whole body hot hot like water boils man..hahahahha..

well..even im sick..i got to go to school still cuz i dont wan to let vivien do all the job for the banner...cuz both of us are the chosen ones to do this for the independence day...fifty years man..whoa..should b really proud of this..hahahah...

hmmm..pmr trail starts on tuesday and shi teen my good tengeh junior partner have to sit for it and guess wat..she is sick too!!!!sallyn is sick too!!!whoa...seems like a season everyone is coughing,fever,having flu,and things like tht..so for those who is still healthy,do something to prevent this or else its really hard to get rid of it..hahaha...its really bad..and the haze is thickening..eveyone is breathing the wrong air!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so wake up everyone...

hmmm...wat should i say??

o ya..farewell...gosh...lotsa lotsa stuff to do..i have to do all the cuttings...i hav to design..i have to do all the measuring..argh...but i dun mind..hahaha..at least i could contribute something for this prefectorial board..hmmm..some of the prefect is abit blurr bout their job but i think its normal thou...cuz they came in late sumtimes n leave early or didnt attend meeting..so ntg they knew..summore the head sumtimes got to much to think off till forgot to tell wat is their job n things like tht..hmmm..wateva it is..no one should b blame ya..hehehe...

just really hope i could get better tht all...got headache this n tht..gosh..hate this feeling and miss all my cheerful faces..hahahah....

i guess tht all for today...tomorrow summore got school...

got to go to bed..

10:27 - Friday, August 10, 2007 - comments {0} - post comment

skul driving me CRAZEH

hmmmmm..wonder why i have this as the theme for today??well...tell u guys here...last friday..ops..i mean thursday,we got to know tht one of an indian gurl scratch teachers car..two disciplinary teachers,pn hjh badariah and pn radziah..hmm..any idea of the third victim??well...its our school PRINCIPAL...shock??well..i am too..hahahah..gosh..tht lady have the guts and  courage to do so..[shook head]  o ya..the worse part is three inspector came and gave a looooooooonnngggg speech and my indian classmates came back to class with really sour face..u noe wat they say??they say their image is gone case cuz this is the first history of this girl skul...gosh...just only this early year a inspector praise our skul...now....im speechless....

hmmm...if u were to ask'hey mic,hows ur skul life?'..ill say " one word dude,sucks"...yeah..life in skul sucks as more n more things pop up..i have two farewell to help..as im one of d comitee..arh..lazy to type bout this..

this fren of mine,joanne said i need to update my blog cuz she want to hear from me la..feel so nice le..ehem ehem..ahahahah...cant believe she's been looking forward for each n every post tht i made...well..i miss the time we have fun in angeline's house..we were mad..hahaha..fun too...she's a hottie thou..every guys love her..cute..hahaaha...and i just talk to her online..hahaha..using our malaysian words..cuz this month is patriotic month so we were having fun with it..cool huh..yeap..of course..talking to a hottie is totally cool ryte..

hmm..wat else...o yea..last saturday got agm..for girl guides..dun really have a mood anyway so i did bad in my interview with a motif..wakaka..anyone know wat it is??nope..no one knows...actually i did bad cuz i want my fren,vivien to have a higher pose than me..yeah..u guys must b thinking tht im nuts,out of my mind or things like tht..hahaha..well..i have my own reasons for doing those actually..one is frenship..since we got our new pose for prefect,she wasnt tht satisfy and im sure she hates me ALOT..she may even think i dun deserve..thts y i did this to her...i want her to b happy again..i wan to b with her as we use to b..and in order to b tht old times,i need to do something to made her happy..well..actually we all didnt know wat pose we got for girl guide but my very good fren n my senior,sallyn gave a clue to me..she said vivien's pose is much more higher than mine..well..im glad and im smilling inside..cuz she didnt noe i have this motif..and she knew i did bad cuz she was in d board room too..hahaha..i just hope tht she's happy..and she will nvr knew tht i did this to her..thts y i have my blog as my perfect diary..

hmmm...sallyn n i were just close as usual..well..maybe we are too close tht ppl might think we are lesbians..yeah..lesbians..even one of her teacher said tht..once i have my recess in the canteen and we were talking..just the two of us..then this pei sze sis n sue li sis pass by with their teacher..she said i n sallyn were dating..wow..she said it out loud..gosh..but who cares...as long as we know tht we arent lesbians..and we are good buddies thts all..my classmates...kausalyah is the monitor...we have a dance trainin on saturday after agm..so i n sallyn were taking pictures as we use to be [vain ryte]..so they all were teasing and all..hahahah..

and the best part is..this gurl..who everybody hate cuz of her huge bad odour was there..well..she like one of our class girl..so i n sallyn try to make her jeolous by hugging n touching n manja-manja with her..whoaaaa..u should look at tht odour-lady..she's staring..hahaha..im telling ya we are having fun with it...and the next thing she do is practising her taekwando..hahaha..to release her tension i guess...

monday [thts today]..the very first assembly in our new pose...last two weeks were raining like no one business so we got to cancelled it..dun tell me u wan to assemble under the rain ryte..hahaha..silly me...so it was not bad..all under control..and guess wat?my  class won for the cleanest class in form four..yippie...first time in this year..but u noe wat i heard????i heard they[teachers] want to declare our class as the cleanest to cheer pn badariah up...hmmmm..so unfair ryte??yeah..i noe..im sure other class tht have been hardworking feel really dissappointed ryte..give her a break ya..it takes time to cheer her up...even she came to class late today..she have nvr been late...so sad..

hmmm...things btw xxxx is better!!!im glad...but..we are just frens..hahaha..yeah...staying as fren is d best..nobody gets hurt..nobody gonna cry..and most of all..nop suicidal cases..hahahahhha..well....we've been text messages each otha nowadays..hahah..and we just chat just now online..we talk alot.hahah..we share the same interest..and most of them all are same..can u imagine tht??well..believe it..hahahahha...frens....hahahahahhaahahaha...dunno wat i crap bout..

vivien n su phing got thier hair cut yesterday...so the four of us[a family] having a short hair year..hahahha..cool huh..our member is su phing-the broom,vivien-the tomato/ vacuum cleaner,li ling-apple/mop and me-the ball...well..now our short hair year history is created..wakakaka..silly me...

o yea..i got myself facial treatment today..arh..how relxing..but tht lady ah..simple press out pimples..now my face is uggggggggg...ah..watch out..hahahahha..karma..hahahah..crazy me...just waiting for improvement tht all..hahaha...

mom said planning to go to pangkor then next trip when dad came back..but my bro,HH got big exams..for me,i can skip one day classes enjoying..hahahah..so not sure yet can anot...fingers cross...hope can la......!!!!!god almighty...make sure we can make it oh!!!!

i guess thts all for my update today..the longest wan i wrote...cuz this joanne cant wait to read..wanna korek wat is inside my heart..hahaha..jk jk..but she's lovely dun worry..ok..mel,i know ur name wasnt listed here today..but ur still a great fren of mine ya..same goes to joanne..hahaha..need to say nicely first..later ah.u noe la...

k then..

lights off..i cant wait to watch prison break..handsome guy waiting for meeeeeee.....

09:07 - Monday, August 6, 2007 - comments {0} - post comment

life is kinda treatening..

yeap..life is freaking hard rite now..everyone seems to b busy..my prefect life...gosh..on 27 july there's the first meeting we held..it is the worst one eva..long to mention...there are so much drama going on..there are so many biatch fight rite now and i hated it...arghhhhh...why there is no peace?this is just the start man..come on..we still got next year to go...it will b a long year man..if there arent co-operation then how la???come on gurls..im sure u gurls can think really well..

well.....friendship is stabil now..im glad for a bit..but some of them dont really like me...so i tink there will b backstabbing going around...i dun noe why..they  say im not quality to...yeah..im sure ppl is not perfect..i agree i do mistakes too..but i do learn fr there...i try my best to make it perfect..y u just dont wan to give me the chance???if u were great enuf then stop critic bout ppl..make sure u see wat u do first before u start pointing others..

hmmm..tht day saw my junior name bonnie..ppl keep talking bout she and sallyn saying they are together..come on la...they are sooooooo narrow minded..even sallyn agree tht..hahaha..and ppl do talk bout me n her tooooo...arh...today i do talk to her..alot actually...then after the student recess,i replace my recess cuz i came down late...so sallyn was there with me..and we talk like no others ppl business...and then came my two good funny senior name sue li and pei sze...they are great ppl..so they came with teacher and say ohhhhhh..i n her having an affair...gosh...here's come another...we were like wat the...then in class,ppl keep teasing her..well..i and her are in diff class n form..hahaha...gosh..bad bad..hahahah...after skul she walk to the gate already then she saw me and walk backwards to me again..and she says tht bonnie and the gang keep teasing me and her..whoa..why now change d wan ah...then when she told me then i walk with her to d gate..when pass by them,they make one kind of noises la..hahaha..so evil la they all..then i wanted to talk to her summore but unfortunately my bus came..so sad..hahaha..feel bad leaving her alone in those situation...arsh arsh arsh...

xxx and i talk...hmmm...ok la......things are okay..

my mom go for surgery..pity her...but its jus a minor wan...just her eyebag and the  eye lifting...but her eyes abit swollen and got like a jelly like layer on her aqueous humour...see also feel so bad..so i just try to do my best as a daughter..cuz the doc advise is not to bend down or use too much of her energy...so i help lo..here n there...

thts my day...

to be up tp date

ps:mell,i love ur blog~and im happy tht u wrote bout me...love ya~

08:17 - Saturday, July 28, 2007 - comments {0} - post comment

diff thought...~

wrong!!!!!everything is wrong!!!!!!!!

well...like i said..the xxxx[the otha guy]..hmmm..i have the wrong thought of him i guess...well,he went to langkawi island yesterday..he said it was a last minute trip...hmm..my class was cancelled..so yeah...we chat for sometime after midnite while im watching a show...he was just on his way at MIGNIGHT..i was like wow..ok..hahahahhaa..

this morning at nine,i woke up to go to skul..i text message him...the feeling towards him change..now i found tht his a gd person again..i pity him..the whole nite was travel oni..gosh..hahahah...we talk..as like frens u noe..hahahha...well..yeap..frens...

im glad..yeah..so nice...im happie..but i was late to the discussion bout the guides farewell so i got scolded from the head..hahahha..well...tonite got barbeque party...i hope its gonna b fun..

i pity mel...she cant attend to the discussion because her granny is sick and admitted to hospital..she dont noe wat to do..gosh..so sad..i experience tht too last year...its a bad experience...a nightmare i should say.....

hmmmm..my good fren and i plan to give something great to my fren on farewell day...hmmmmmmm...still thinking for ideas..hahahah...well...she'll just have to wait and see...hahahaha..hope she love it...!!!

cant wait till barbeque party~

[m]iC~

03:41 - Saturday, July 21, 2007 - comments {0} - post comment

nEvEr cHaNge

gosh...i dun noe y wat have happen btw us again..dun u eva think tht is so freaking lame....gosh...im so freaking tired of all this...yeah..maybe she's moody or wateva...tht is just so SICKENING...looking back i tot she might sumhow change her freaking attitude...but my eye lie to me...i was WRONG...all the while i tot she's change but the fact is..she will never change....all the trust i have in her..just faded n faded slowly n suddenly GONE...well..today was a freaking tired day...well..i dun noe how or since when the bad feeling comes and we nvr ever like frens before..girls...dramas...she's the new her...i guess i have to move on..its not tht i wanna critisize her or wat...but she've been so selfish...all it is bout HER HER N HER...wat bout me??????yeah..maybe they look down on me or wateva...let them be...its not tht i gonna change their freaking prospect of life ryte...all the good feeling to come to school change..totally...i use to b a joyful n merry n gay fella but now..its the freaking emo bum...i nvr have tht in mind b4 thou..gosh...i just wish this life is great just for few times man..at least...

xx [a diff fella] change tooooo...guess im gonna leave him/her alone...im so not into tht anymore..im gonna stop..and let it be another path which he/she wanna choose...

gosh..nowadays i feel i wasnt appreciated at all...not even my best frens...the way they look..its just diff this time...yeah..maybe tht pose dun suit me bla bla bla..but..its not tht i want tht pose ryte...its the teacher who have the strong believe in me tht im kinda capable in taking those jobs..then wat the hell u guys keep taking all the bad stuff behind my back??wasnt i good enuf???yea..maybe ur betta...fine..then just take those pose la..since u love it so much...its not a big deal ok..a pose is stay a pose and me stay me...its diff cant u get it??? just because of the freaking pose,all havoc starts to happen..rumours bout this n tht start to go on...gosh..come on man..teacher put the trust on us n now we are the one who create problems...come on la...wake up ok...is tht wat makes ur satisfy when u see us in bitter or sadness or suffer???

this is a freaking bad week seriously..even my good fren also treat me like tht...and i dun noe wat is the reasons man..gosh....

but thkx to mell,joanne,adel,angel,jeanie,sue yan and mostly sallyn...they are the best ppl in town...!!cheers..

and yesterday was angel's birthday..we celebrated in mamak...hehe...so happie happie....

[m]iC~

ill keep up to date~

06:53 - Friday, July 20, 2007 - comments {0} - post comment

before tht..my best fren's birthday..

her birthday??hmmmm...i dun even know whether she appreciate it anot..ive been wrapping and trying to make it look so special the whole night long before and i left it at her doorstep before i went to tuition..the very next day she just came and say thank you...she dun even look excited...she dun even hug me and said,ur my greatest birthday present ever..gosh...my heart sinks when my expectati0n topple down...yea we been good frens b4 this..but things get so rough and our frenship is really torn apart..i dun noe how to fix things up..its just seems so hard..i nvr really feel appreciated b4..nvr..i tot she might b true and pure..she is..my i felt tht my believe on her wasnt tht strong as it use to..should i believe in her??or should i just move on like she nvr exist????should i alwiz feel her pain while im the one who only carry the misery ive kept from her???she is the one who use to understand me..how i feel..how i do..how i react..how i go thru...but now...its like she nvr needed me..i just felt im invisible in her eyes..does she still treat me as her best fren while ive been keeping all my savings for her birthday present?im a good enuf for her???ive alwiz lie to her in a good way..i lie to her tht its my mom who bought it but its all mine....i lie to her tht its not my artwork but its mine..i lie to her tht ive been doing otha stuff but actually im doing her birthday present to make a very special one for her..but............it seems i nvr been appreciated by her...we just sit side by side in class while we nvr talk like we use to be..how is my life or hers....we just keep our mouth shut bout our private lives...its like the music without its notes or lyrics..and its the sea without sea creatures..its like a laptop without its keyboard...its a a wine without its glassssss.....i dun noe wat else i could do to make her feel tht i exist???ntg..

on d otha hand,sallyn..................my great fren..she means alot to me...i hope time would not pass so quickly..i dun wan her to graduate cuz there will b no one else could replace her..she alwiz there to help..her heart is so pure...i gonna miss her..

shi teen,..even she's my junior but i treat her as my gd fren..she,sallyn n me are three great t-e-n-g-e-h partner..she's sharky,sallyn is the foxy and im the piggy...we have fun on 14th of july where there was a campfire in catholic skul...i think it will b the last campfire we will b attending together...

xxxxx,a gd fren tht ive met in sumwhere..alwiz been supporting me no matter wat...a very nice person....

i miss all of them..not forgotten joanne,mellisa,angel,adel and su phing..they have been great!!

09:46 - Monday, July 16, 2007 - comments {0} - post comment

gosh..unbearable

gosh...i cant help it..things gets tooo rough for me..i really cant help it...i was selected as the ass.head prefect..i am quite happy but im not too...cuz there are a bunch of seniors tht say i wasnt fit to be in tht pose..then y they gave me this pose?????gosh...the crying cant help it but yet i still cry..its not tht i need comfort..but ppl should know..i have some potential too...but WHY they cant see it??y should they go against me so badly???am i tht bad???i noe i wasnt perfect but ppl do mistakes too but deserve a chance to change..i took tht chance and i did change okay...seriously..they wanted to pick someone else cuz its was one of their fren's sister..they was not happy cuz i took her pose..her pose tht she actually will be...but ONE thing they actually doesnt noe....the one they want to b a ass.head or head is actually a liar!!!!!!!!!!!!she didnt attend to class and she told the class monitor tht she was up to sumthing but actually she is NOT!!!!she and her frens lock themself in the toilet!!!!!and they keep talking bout guys instead of books studies and schools....gosh.....and ya noe wat???her sista gang is up to sumthing im sure..im totally sure with myself...they wan take revenge...it wasnt fair...its wasnt fair...because of her..all of the ppl around got hurt and  got misunderstand...ppl think tht we are the one who is wrong but actually it was HER!!!!!!gosh....they couldnt just wake up...yea..cuz it was her fren bla bla bla..tht is just so unfair....because of her..all of my gd frens got hurt..crying like hell but ntg could b done...because of her,ppl change into a monster,because of her all of us got HURT.....its so unfair thou..how could this b happening???when  this will end??next year??when her sista graduate???its in a few months time thou...and im sure they gonna create as much problem as they could to turn me down...misery n pain is wat i could feel..seeing my best fren crying over for her great pose she was so happy bout b4 tht was so hurtful..the pose she got now is so low tht she is so...so...hurt...she doesnt even want to talk to me tht time..yea..i get it..ppl wan to b alone when they wan to think all it again...but its so unfair...because of tht bitch we all got hurt.........should i payback???or should i just shut up???should i just give letter to teacher and stop my job as a prefect??how to make things good???how how how is all i got in my head...things was just going to be okay this few days n this thing came up...the day before we were just have camping n campfire where we enjoy like no otha ppl's business..now..y this???because we were too excited???because there is a limit???wat it is this all bout???wat they call pantang larang???or wat freaking thing it is???????im sooo sooo blank..i hope i could do betta..but i could not...all i could do is pray and do for the best i could..to prove to them tht they were wrong bout me....................................................................................!

[m]iC~

09:27 - Monday, July 16, 2007 - comments {0} - post comment

good things is here for a bit

well...things got back betta nowadays but it seems a bit uneasy still..its like something is there in my vessel but i dun noe wat is tht..well..im sitting back with my best fren n things get well abit...ive been close with melissa and sallyn nowdays..they have been such a meaningful fren..they patiently hear from me n b ther when i reali need them...its a bit weird at first when i sit with her...we nvr really talk..gosh..the part..its like we nvr knew each otha like tht..wat la...well..her birthday is here soooooonnn...and i dun noe wat should i get for her...any idea?apparently not..totally blank...and nowadays ive been so crazily busy...like bee hunting for honey...last saturday went for campfire in victoria instition skul..and one word to describe tht...sucks....the food sux..the pa system sux,the games n entertainment sux..i mean its not tht i wanna say tht but its really true..every skul was not satisfy with tht...victoria skul alwiz have great stuff...alwix but i wasnt sure why this year things happen tht way...anyway..wish them luck next year...test is going on next week..after tht i will have so called camping then the week after will have anotha campfire...wow..seems busy huh...

was life great nowadays?well....quiet i suppose to say...well...i have this fren called xxxx,he's a great person...we've been frens for some time and he's really nice..alwiz there to hear from me too..im glad tht i have him to cheer me up..its really to have a fren tht alwiz b there for u when u needed them..they can make u feel so special at times...moment tht u really wanna hold on to...

i hope life will continue to b a good one...ya..maybe life is not alwiz in a bed of roses but i hope for the best..

[m]iC~

4/7/07

08:53 - Wednesday, July 4, 2007 - comments {1} - post comment

drama continues...

11:15 - Wednesday, June 27, 2007 - comments {0} - post comment